Sometimes we just have those pinch me moments. Those moments
when reality seems and feels better then any dream. Those moments when we couldn't imagine what life would be like any other way.
We are happy. We are at peace.
A year ago at this moment I was going through one of the
biggest trials I never expected that id have to go through. We all hear stories
about hard break ups but it’s not until we put our heart through one, that we
can even comprehend the feeling of breaking. People try to be there for you,
they say they feel your pain, they help you to get your mind off of the hurt temporarily
but at the end of the day, you realize it’s all just to cloud your hurt
feelings.
With time, you heal, move on, and find yourself again.
This blog started as a healing for me to get my feelings out. It started as a way for me to vent and reflect on life more in particular
this break up that I was going through. I saw that through my words, I have helped
others in return with their breakups and life’s trials. It was never my
intention to gain attention but to help others who maybe going through what I was
going through.
In this past year, I have not held myself back. Everyone has
a bad break up, everyone gets hurt, everyone knows what it feels like to get
let down with empty filled promises and lies. We have all been there.
So what?
I believe in not holding ourselves back. Go out there and
take that risk again. Find love again and if you get hurt – get back up and
take another risk. There is no girl who is exactly the same nor is there any guy
who is the exact same. Don’t punish the opposite sex because of that one person
who hurt you. There will be someone who will find the good in you, who will not
let you go and will cherish the amazing things you have to offer.
It’s frustrating I know. The toughest trial that I had this
past year was accepting that when things didn't work out – there were reasons
for it not working out. I was engaged, I was happy, I had a wedding date set, I
did everything I could to make it work – why wouldn't it work out? We blame
ourselves but... hey if it didn't work out – it never was suppose to.
It has taken a complete year for me to feel myself again. It
has taken a full year for me to have no desire to turn back and revisit my past.
If you would have asked me a year ago if I believed in my Heavenly Fathers plan
for me – I would have told you heck no – but little did I know how grateful I would
end up being.
Today, make a change in your life. If you’re not happy,
change. If you have seen yourself turn into a person you don’t wanna be –
change yourself. It’s never too late to
change the cards you have before your eyes. If I have learned one thing in this
past year it’s this – never settle. You can have the world and more.
Thank you for helping me through this journey of healing. Thank
you for being my support group and helping me see that there is a light at the
end of the tunnel.
I am the happiest I have ever been. I am so grateful so all
that I have. I couldn't ask for anything better then this life I am living. I
hope my journey has given you hope to know that there is more to life, so much
more to life then dwelling about things that are meant to break up down. Take
those trials by the horns and make it a positive thing in your life.