I have often wondered what things would be like if I were to
just stop in place. Would I enjoy a sunset set longer, would a conversation develop
into something more, would I decide on my own that this may not be where I want
to be in life.
We get caught up in the rush of things that time slips
through our fingers and before we know it its tomorrow. Knowing we can never
change whatever happened that previous day.
I had a very deep conversation with the Lord the other night
and I had this overwhelming feeling come upon me. It was as if Heavenly Father was present
before my eyes and I could feel his love for me stronger than ever before.
That conversation we held that night is one that I will
always hold close. I remember tears coming down my face because I didn't want
to leave. I didn't want this moment of feeling so close to him, to leave. I didn't want to go to sleep knowing that maybe with time I would soon get caught
up in life and forget him again.
I remember wanting to just know how his day had been that
day. So many times I come to the Lord in my times of need not thinking that
maybe he needs someone this time instead. Did he see someone’s life change that
day, was he reunited with an old friend, did I do something that made him smile
that day? I just wanted to know.
Two nights later, I was in the presence of someone I care a
lot about. I wanted to pause time with this person. I wanted to just laugh and play all day
because it was easier to do that then to think about the reality. As I left him that night, I had those
same feeling come over me. I wanted to just pause time because being there with
him, it felt safe again. Tears rolled down my cheeks once again for the reality
of tomorrow changing this moment.
If I could I would stop time.
I would stop time for those wanting just a few more minutes.
For in those few minutes of the day changing, so much can
happen. So much can change.